Anonymous

when will sab be updated? i want moar :D. sorry for being inconvenient / rude, but i want it back.

That is an excellent question, anon (and you are most certainly not the first to ask)!  And it’s actually something I’ve been actively thinking about as of late, so I guess I’ll explain myself outright.  I’ve always felt that I’ve been fairly transparent with my readers, and I don’t plan on stopping now.



Maybe two months ago, I had a sort of revelation - SaB, as it was before, is dead.  It’s been dead for a long time, and I’d never been willing to admit it.

I realized that every time I’d thought about continuing SaB, it hadn’t been out of my own desire to work on the project, but rather my desire for actively making something for and interacting actively with the M3 fandom again.  No matter how much I loved the characters or story of SaB (and yes, I must reiterate that I’ve had the entire thing planned out, even if not outright written, for a long, long time), for almost two years any desire to continue the project had been superficial.

And let’s face it: so much has happened to me in the last few years (for those who weren’t around for any of it, lots of family death and etc. has happened.  Lots.), all during SaB’s run, and I’ve lost whatever gave me the enthusiasm to draw at least one colored page of it every week.  I never lost enthusiasm for the work itself, just for the, uh, work it took to make it.  Not to mention the weight of college and life and college-life, which along with everything else has frankly been exhausting, not to mention the presence of other projects that have grabbed my attention in the interim.  Honestly, with the way my enthusiasm for things in general, creative work only being one aspect of it, has been in constant flux, I’ve taken whatever rare idea I actually want to work on for granted.

So, SaB as it was is dead.  I’ve been trying to figure out exactly how to break the news for almost two months now.

But interestingly enough, as all that other crap has happened, the types of media and artistic inspiration I’ve taken in, especially in the last year, are a lot more varied than they used to be.  And - perfect timing here, I guess - a few days ago was the first time in almost two years, if not two years outright, that I wanted to actually work on SaB.  Not for anybody else, but for myself.

It was really bizarre.  Like, jeez, self, how wishy-washy can you get?  Can’t even commit to NOT working on something anymore.  but I digress.

Because as I said, I never stopped loving the characters or the story I had planned (and certainly not M3 as a game).  But SaB as it was was dead, and I had to realize that.  It still is.  Even if SaB’s story hasn’t changed, I have.

So SaB isn’t cancelled, I guess.  I don’t know when anything will come of it, and it certainly won’t look the same (definitely don’t expect colored pages - I’ve grown fond of working with black and white with the IKF ask blog anyway, to be honest - and I have no clue how the hell the update schedule will work), but it’s not cancelled, I guess.  Or rather, old SaB is, but SaB as a whole is not.  I was only halfway through the story, give or take, after all.

5 years agoOctober 6, 2013 Reblog