Don’t get me wrong, I really liked the Lemonhope episodes.  Character arcs and symbolism are my jam (even if I’m still not sure how much I agree with Objectivism as a thing).

But Billy’s Bucket List reminded me of how I felt after I first marathoned the entire show, ending up with watching I Remember You a day after it aired and The Lich later on when it premiered.  A feeling that I thought was gone entirely with Red Throne (not because of shipping, but rather because of its multiple other problems).  A sort of…deeply-felt sense of potential, if that makes any sense.  Billy’s Bucket List wasn’t the best episode in the show’s run (though of course it was pretty good), but it captured that for me again.

Season five, as a giant whole, has had some of the highest highs and the lowest lows of the show, in my opinion.  And there’s been times where I’ve been hyped and times where I haven’t, times where I still loved the show and times where I felt so disconnected from it that the IKF AU was my only link.  But I hadn’t really been looking forward to what happens next for a while.

Maybe it’s just a season finale thing.  The episode did end with a reveal and a huge tease, after all.  But I think it’s just a bit different from that sort of anticipation.